Addictive Personality Disorder

This may seem a little odd, but I didn't discover I had an addictive personality disorder in any of the normal ways that most people would have. Most of the time, people with addictive personalities are very good at the art of self deception, and I was definitely not an exception to this rule. Every single time I would fall prey to another addiction or relapse into one of my old habits, I would always have an excuse for myself. I would just convince myself that it was not a big deal or that I was only going to use it this one time. The reality was, that I knew deep down inside, that my addictive behavior would continue. Many of my friends encouraged me to seek counseling and addiction treatment, but I wasn't going to listen to them. I continued to follow my old ways, convincing myself that there was absolutely nothing wrong with what I was doing.

Strange as it may seem, It was a free personality test that alerted me to my problems. It was supposed to be a psychological self-evaluation. I discovered it by accident while I was passing time by taking an Internet personality tests. At first, I just laughed it off, but with each question that I answered I began to realized that something was definitely wrong. It's one thing when your friends or family tell you that you have an addictive personality disorder. People who are close to you really care about you, they worry about you, and sometimes they go a little overboard in their concerns. This made it easy for me to convince myself that they were overstating the problem. However, When an online personality test revealed that I had an addictive personality disorder, that caused me to stop and think. I knew that the test was impartial and it was not being swayed by any type of concern for me. After all, it was a computer automated quiz! I finally decided that maybe it was about time I went to see what a psychiatrist had to say about what was going on.

When the psychiatrist eventually told me that I had an addictive personality disorder, I can honestly say that I wasn't surprised. It was strange, but I had spent so much time and effort denying things that, once I began to admit that I had a problem, my resolve shattered. I was ready to go for treatments as soon as possible, and the psychiatrist recommend a good treatment facility. It seems, with severe addictive personality disorders, often the best course of action is to isolate yourself from general society for a couple weeks. This will allow you some time to recuperate and reflect on the problems you have been dealing with. After that period of time, you can gradually integrate yourself back into a normal society. An addictive personality disorder will never go away, but with proper counseling and support you can learn to manage it. Today, I know when I am about to do something stupid and give in to my addictive personality. I have learned self-control, and that knowledge is invaluable to me.